I think this will be my last entry about the procedural aspects of losing pregnancies. I had a lot of procedures yesterday, making me worn out....
So I was scheduled for 11:30 for a D & C. I woke up at 4:30am with pretty bad cramping and spotting which over the next 4 hours, turned into really bad cramps, horrible cramps....and bleeding like I have never experienced before. Turns out I miscarried at home. That was a really tough morning, mainly emotionally but also because I was not sure if surgery would still be necessary at 11:30 so still could not take any food or water....or any medicine. Usually when you take the Misoprostol, you can pump your system with anti-diarrhea and pain medication before it all begins.
At 8am, I frantically called my doc and she said it sounded like I needed an exam and ultrasound before I was prepped for surgery. She met me at 9:45 and after the exam, she said I did not need surgery, hooray! But wait, I did need the D&C still, just not as long of one so she did not need the actual OR, she could do it in the OB "procedure room" and I would be awake......yikes. So now I have actively, painfully miscarried in my house and I need to consciously go through a D&C? Ugh....but my main goal was to get home and sleep and begin healing so I just went through the motions. It was hard, terribly hard to see and hear and feel the pain of all of this.....much different than my plan to go to sleep and wake up groggy. So much for planning, right ladies?
I saved all of the tissue from home and they will do chromosomal work on it. Not that I am expecting the answer to all of this. But the - scientific, analytical and practical - Meg is back, no more - chance, hope and "meant to be" - Meg around here right now. So I will wait to stop spotting, try and forget aspects of yesterday and begin healing. Much of that will be to begin visiting all of your blogs....see how all of you are doing and share some well wishes like I have received this week. Thank you.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Friday - Strangest Friday Ever
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Oh my goodness...that sounds like a down right nightmare. Rest and take care of yourself.
I miscarried naturally AFTER a D&C, and it is really awful. My OB told me it feels EXACTLY like labor even though you are "expelling" something much, much smaller. I wanted to point out that after labor you usually get a baby, but that seemed like a moot point.
Hopefully they gave you some good pain meds and you are now able to rest.
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That sucks that you weren't able to do the sleep thing...but it seems like you have a good attitude about moving on, which I don't have to tell you is the best next step. I am so interested in what the findings are for this miscarriage. It's rare I hear these days that they'll do that for you until the 3rd. Which hopefully none of us ever have to through! Best wishes and rest up!
Sounds horrible. Good that they will be running tests though. One of the worst things about mine was that they wouldn't run any tests unless I had 3 miscarriages.
I hope that they gave you some really good meds before, during and after the procedure. That really sounds awful and I'm so sorry you've had to do all this. Bad enough to lose a pregnancy that was so hoped for but then to have to put up with everything you've done the last couple of days really sucks.
I am so, so sorry that you are going through this! I can't imagine your pain. It sucks all over the place, and there is nothing I can say except that the pain gets better one day. For me, after just one loss, the pain is gentler, but the need to get pregnant again got even stronger.
thank you for your sweet note on my blog- I didn't expect to come to your's and see such trauma right now. :( I hope you get some answers soon. *hugs
I hope you are retsing and taking care of yourself now. Again, I'm sorry for what you've been dealing with.
I hope the testing they are doing provides you with some answers.
I just wanted to stop by to say that you are in my thoughts and that your strength through such a traumatic situation is inspiring.
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