New Year **Update**

New years always depress me, mainly because I just finally got used to writing the previous year on my checks and such. I cannot believe it has been 8 years since Y2K. I cannot believe I have been with hubby since 1998, I was such a baby back then. I cannot believe what I heard the other day, that the movie Pretty Woman is 18 years old. More frightening is that I watched that when I was 11 years old, what were my parents thinking?? The most frightening of all...I will be 29 is about a month. I am in a very strange "where does the time go, it is all almost over" mood today so bear with me. I just cannot believe how truly short life is and how quickly it passes by.

I am usually not one to make new years resolutions, other than the annual "I will get my ass to the gym more and stuff my pie hole less this year" resolution. This year however, I can truly think of three things I would like to focus more attention on in 2008.

1. I am a pretty environmentally conscious person but I think I would like to include buying more seasonal produce and trying to buy locally as much as possible. Locally just makes me feel better and seasonal produce just makes sense. I never really paid attention to why the store is bursting with clementines and pomegranates right now. All of that changed in the last few years when I realized the produce "in-season" at any given time of year is so much more affordable and tasty when it is eaten in the right time of year. Seriously, go to the store today and buy a tomato and I bet it tastes like shit compared to how it tastes in the summertime.

2. I hope to treat my body better. I have spent endless years focusing on how I feel, what the scale says and just constantly thinking about foods and weight, only to look back at pictures from a few years ago and wanting to slap myself for thinking so harshly about myself. I will inevitably feel guilty for eating too much this year at times and feeling bad when I do not get to the gym as often as I should but I really do need to be nicer to my body. My body has not been the most cooperative this year in terms of producing a fat and healthy squirming baby and I have really been mad at that....but it is time for me to only fill it with good thoughts and nutritious foods. I may just buy the raw almonds instead of the dry roasted, salted peanuts at the store...

3. I would like to be more social. I am an introvert...so the idea of getting dressed up and going out tonight with tons of people, past midnight sounds much less attractive than going out for a nice dinner and heading home to get into PJs and watching the ball drop on the couch. But we are going out....and I will try very hard not to crave my PJs beginning at 10pm. I have very close friends but not a ton of them. I am not terribly good at meeting new people and I need to fix that.

Notice how my resolutions do not include actually carrying a baby to term in 2008? I am smart enough not to make any promises like that... I made that promise in June before pregnancy #2 and it really burned....hurt me like nothing else. I will "hope" to have a baby this year but I am not promising myself anything like that.

**UPDATE** Hubby came home this afternoon and we both looked at each other and simultaneously said we did not feel like going to the party anymore. We rationalized that we would still go out to our favorite restaurant and share a nice bottle of wine but the cost of the cabs to and back from downtown plus the cover and the bar tab just does not make sense. I am beginning to think, however, that hubby loves his PJs and our rockin' Crate and Barrel couch as much as I do. I will start my social resolution tomorrow.