Flooded

I expected the two lines to bring on a wave of anxiety which I have not visited since last November. I am having trouble sleeping and find myself worrying so much right now. I feel flooded with so many thoughts and emotions and I am just a ball of angst, it is awful. But at other times I am excited and hopeful - especially when I pee on a stick and the line is darker. That helps a lot!

I called the RE today and will go in for a progesterone and beta draw in a few hours. I asked the nurse if I should stop the Parlodel (Bromocriptine) and she quickly said "yes, that needs to be stopped. Did you stop Saturday when you got the +?" Um, no but I will stop today. She said it was not safe while pregnant. Well why the F did you have me on it still. According to your directions, I should not have even tested this early anyhow. I just happen to be obsessed with knowing things early and it is 12 dpo today and I will stop the meds today. Now I am freaked the fuck out that I was still on this med. Although, I frantically googled and it sounds like it is a Class B drug. Regardless, the worry in me is a bit fired up this morning.

Come on good beta and progesterone numbers! Although I have had awesome betas before. This can be different though. I know it can.