Monday the 17th seems so freaking far away. Last week I was coasting, doing my thing and getting through the week. This week, not so much. I chose to have the u/s later than they wanted because I cannot handle them early anymore. My dreams consist of many cliffs, scary meandering on roads and of course many many dreams of seeing spotting on TP. Awful I tell you.
I think if I had more symptoms I would feel a little better about the idea that something is growing and thriving inside of my body. I want the fatigue. I want the nausea....I need the nausea to come and just sit for a while. I have gone back to many of your early blogging to see what you felt at 5/6 weeks and as I expected, it varies. But I want it. It would help reassure me. As of right now the only symptom consistent is the feeling that someone cut my nipples off with dull scissors. Their pain can bring me close to tears at times. So I guess that is good.
One long week coming up ahead.....
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Waiting
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I did not have any real symptoms (nausea, fatigue, etc.) until week 8. Hope this helps!
The waiting is so very hard. If it helps, my symptoms came and went so much that I was constantly worrying.
I went back to look at my posts during that time and found this post: http://spicysister.blogspot.com/2008/05/sustained-encounter-with-uncertainty.html
It probably doesn't fit exactly, but it reminded me what a fight it was to stay in the waiting. To stay in the fierce uncertainty of it all. It contains this quote from the movie Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium (That I stole from Denise):
Molly: “37 seconds…great, well done, now we wait.”
Mr. Magorium: “No, we breathe. We pulse. We regenerate. Our hearts beat, our minds create, our souls ingest. 37 seconds well-used is a lifetime.”
I think in many ways this wait will feel like a lifetime whether it is "well-used" or not. But I just want to say you are in a brave and wild space. It takes great courage to wait and hope.
Still, I will send lots of nausea vibes your way just to help you out a bit! :)
It is hard when you have no symptoms. Hang in there!
I didn't feel the fatigue and nausea until after 8 weeks. I felt perfectly fine at 5/6 weeks. I have my big u/s the 17th too. I will pray for both of us!
Meg, My thoughts with you. I went through the exact same thing with the 3rd pregnancy.
I worried and worried and tried to enjoy it but then I would think back to the other 2 losses and it would run my life. I finally just had to relax and try and enjoy the pregnancy.
Keep in mind the wonderful saying "third times a charm".
Hang in there. I know you want this so badly.
Something that helped me was I would daily ask God for this baby. (I am by no means a spirital person). I also had a necklace made with the other 2 babies date of conseption, when they were suppose to be born, and a butterfly symbolizing when they flew to heaven. I wore it daily. It helped me to get over the past and live for the pregnancy at that time. (I got it at forevermychild ((dot)) com).
I am living proof as is several other women that this can work. You will have a wonderful pregnancy and join the rest of us who have little one(s).
We are all rooting for you Meg.
That wait is absolutely excruciating. I'm sending lots of good energy your way, and hoping that the 17th speeds its way to you. Hang in there - you are doing great.
My nausea didn't start until week 7 or 8. But the nips are a great sign! I was feeling myself up constantly, worrying whether they felt "better" or not... ah, the madness. Hoping this week speeds by for you. xox
I know just how you feel. I had all those same feelings.
Wishing you peace and strength . . . less than a week now!
Hi, I stumbled on your blog a few days ago. I was just diagnosed (on Friday) with a submucosal fibroid growth of about 2 cm in my uterus. I go back for a f/u appt. to discuss my treatment options with the doc on 11/19. I saw that you had surgery for a septate in your uterus. I'd love to hear more on your thoughts and will actively follow your blog. I also had 2 prior MCs (which led me to request the u/s to check my uterus). I am anxiously awaiting to become a mommy and hope that I am able to resolve this fiborid problem so that I can have a healthy PG. I wish you the best of luck, and that you'll have a healthy PG!
I remember back to my last 2 week wait and I honestly didn't think all that timed intercourse did the trick (which pissed me off since my injections were quite a chunk of change. I thought I wasn't pregnant so much that when my SIL said she wasn't coming to our anniversary lunch because she was getting over chicken pox and heard it wasn't good for pregnant women I told her that I seriously didn't think I was but thanks for the consideration. Of course then I did find out I was but didn't have any type of nausea until about 7.5 / 8 weeks I think. And I have twins!
My biggest symptoms this whole time has been sore boobs, a stuffy nose and no period. I never had nausea or weird cravings.
But I was freaked out before our last ultrasound. I remember trying not to cry before she started and once she stuck in the dildo cam, it was seconds until she saw the sac and little bub. But I don't think there was any reassurance anyone could give me until that moment of seeing him on the screen.
So, instead, I will just wish time flies by!
And the sweater, I got me an extra large one from good ole Old Navy and called it maternity. :)
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