Monday, December 15, 2008

11 Weeks

I am here and plugging away. I am a neurotic mess but it seems to be a little better. Yes, I am going to use a doppler, just not allowed until I know I should be able to find a HB. No need for an extra freak-out if I cannot find it because frankly there have been plenty already.

I had not opened a pregnancy book or looked at those little week-by-week development sites until last night. I checked the 11 week info and after reading that the baby is large enough to fit in the palm of my hand and measures 1.75-2.5 inches I had to stop. I am just not ready for that, not until I am less terrified of losing the baby. I cannot seem to look ahead at all...

I finish my progesterone tomorrow and am so thrilled not to have to do any suppositories anymore! I am a little freaked about cutting Sprout's favorite protection but doc says it's time. I have boughts of nausea and exhaustion more this week which I am welcoming with open arms. Soooo hungry all of the time. I also got a bella band this weekend because my pants are getting pretty tight (baby or bagels? not sure) and it seems to really help when I can keep my pants unbuttoned.

17 comments:

Antigone said...

Your placenta should be kicking into action. How much progesterone and how often?

Courtney said...

I can relate to your not wanting to read in depth about your pregnancy. It seems like the more real and specific the situation is, the more it could hurt if something happened. I could only allow myself to read small excerpts from time to time. And parenting books??? Does anyone really read those before delivery day???!?? :)

Hang in there - you are doing FANTASTIC. :) :) :)

Denise said...

No need to look ahead yet. Just take it day by day for now. And eat to your hearts content!

Jamie said...

Oh, Meg. I am so excited for you! I hope your freak-outs get fewer and fewer . . .

The Steadfast Warrior said...

I second thr thoughts! You're doing wonderful. Day by day is best. HUGS! ANd symptoms are so very much a good thing (but you already knew that). :)

Anonymous said...

Whee!!! Tight pants and no more suppositories... I'm so excited for you!

Sushilover said...

I agree, take it day by day. Hell I still only on occassion look at those sites...and I'm 22 weeks!

J Sweet said...

Wow, I can't believe you are at 11 weeks. That's amazing! And screw those sites/ books, they're mostly pretty dumb anyway!

HeidiM said...

Oh you are a good sport to welcome nausea with open arms!! =)

I wish I would have rented a Doppler!! You may feel more secure in your second trimester, I did.

And Bella Bands are great. I used mine for a bra too sometimes. ;)

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Loren said...

I'm thinkin baby, not bagels. :)
You are doing SO WELL. Sprout is a keeper! try to enjoy this...you've definitely earned it. I know, easier said than done. But chances are GREAT that everything will go well.
hugs. And yay for nausea!

Fiddle1 said...

You'll keep loving your nausea until you hear that lovely hearbeat on your doppler. I ordered mine in the 13th week and found the heartbeat right away. While they say they are completely safe (and I believe them), I did (and still do) try to find it and then shut it off right away or I may count for 10 seconds to get a heart rate. I know it sounds repetitive, but hang in there..I think it will get easier for you.

Ms. Planner said...

Day by day and then week by week sounds like a darn good plan to me. And this girl LOVES a good plan.

This point in a pregnancy is so tough (for RPL). You are in it long enough to be super invested. You are sick. You are tired. You need some joy but cannot seem to muster any. Not just yet. I feel for you so much.

Trust me. There will be joy. Soon. And going of the progesterone will help with the tiredness and anxiety a bit. Thinking of you. And of course, thinking of Sprout, too.

Lisa said...

Just keep going day by day. ((hugs))

Sanan said...

I am so excited for you Meg! I am sure using a doppler will give you a lot of relief!

Wendy said...

hang in there, mama. i too, shared the same fears. i consider myself very fortunate. my son is now 3 yrs old, as you know, and he took his own path to get here...

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blessings,
wendy aka Mother Rising

B MoM said...

hey meg,
checking in on ya. It's been several days since we last heard from you, so i was just checking in. You're my inspiration you know, us SU sistas gotta stick together....