I am ashamed at how mean and angry I was at the young gal in my class. Even though my comments below about her were not directly to her, and vented in the comfort of my own home....I still feel awful that those thoughts are even possible within me. I am thinking of how nervous and scared she must be for her very first ultrasound tomorrow. I hope all goes well. The yucky sides of pregnancy have made me a really jealous and angry person towards those who somehow found the red "easy" button.
I am not a religious person at all but I am often haunted by Karma. So if I hope to one day have healthy fat babies...I better be nice to others. Also Santa is coming soon so I need to really try and be nice. Oh and Santa, if you read my blog.....I really want this, this and one of these.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Karma Baby....
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Sometimes, we have to feel all of these emotions before we are able to deal with them. Be gentle and kind to yourself. These feelings happen and they are just part of the cycle it seems. As for Santa, If i see him, I will send him your way
We all have those moments, and while I'm not proud of mine, I know they're fleeting and natural.
I'll let you know if I bump into santa!
Hi, Meg. Thanks for stopping by my blog a couple of weeks ago. I'm just now starting to get to the point where I'm posting comments, but I've been keeping up with your journey. Personally, I think having the thoughts and feelings you are having are completely normal. Don't beat yourself up about it. It's good to acknowledge that sometimes we think mean thoughts, but that's why blogging is so good for us-so we don't inappropriately blurt these thoughts out at random people!
I just noticed from one of your older posts that you are in Colorado and so am I. Are you in the Denver area? Let me know if you have any questions on CCRM (where we have been for a year now).
Oh, I hope you don't mind if I add you to my blogroll to make it easier to stop by and see how you're doing.
You should never have to mask your feelings, especially here. This should serve as a safe zone where all types of thoughts and emotions can be recorded and accepted.
All the feelings are natural. It happens, we find ourselves thinking not so nice thoughts or whatever. I believe it's how we act on them. I'm sure that the woman from the previous post felt better having someone acknowledge her situation.
Oh and if I get a chance to talk to Santa I'll let him know you're looking for him.
I was just about to comment on your most recent post but I guess you deleted it (purposely I assume?) I'm sorry if that's the case.
Just wanted to say that I'm thiking of you, whatever you're going through. And that every AF after miscarriage sucks and hurts and splits open our hearts anew.
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