I decided that on February 1st or the day AF arrived (whichever happened first and AF is still holding off, hooray!!) that I would be making some final personal changes before we started trying again. The choices a woman makes when pregnant and when raising her child are her decision and she does not deserve to hear any criticisms about her choices, so if you think I am little nuts...keep it to yourself ;)
After miscarrying twice in less than one year, I have decided that I am not going to leave room for me to ever blame myself again for losing a baby. The tests all continue to come back normal as to why this happened and even though I highly doubt any of these are the cause, I feel much better making the changes. Call me crazy, I know. But it truly will make me feel better about making some contribution to this mess. I will not stress out if I slip up....I just need to feel in control in some way before jumping into this again.
Yesterday I had 2 huge mugs of coffee, a big feta salad for lunch and ate a ton of scrumptious sushi last night for dinner. I also bought my husband a really nice bottle of wine 10 years ago when we started dating and we saved it to open until 2008.
I thought last night was a good night to drink it. It was delicious.
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Goodbye Friends
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You've got to do what is right for you. People thought I was crazy giving up caffiene back in June, but it made me feel like I was doing something.
So good-bye to your friends...I have to say that Ben and Jerry's have become a great replacement for wine...and there was that study a year or so ago about milkfat increasing fertility ;)
Yesterday sounds like a perfect day.
I too have completely given up caffeine, alcohol and now sushi (caffeine and alcohol even prior to transfer this cycle). We can mourn them together if you like.
Root beer floats (no caffeine of course) are now my favorite treat.
Oh, jeez. At first I thought you were saying good bye to us, to blogging.
Whew!
I'm glad you had a nice "going away" party with your other friends.
I also thought you were leaving us and I got a lil teary eyed!! You do whatever it takes for you! (in all situations!)
Doesn't someone on this blog have an upcoming birthday? Happy Happy Birthday to you!
I hear ya...no cafe latte is worth beating yourself up for losing an embryo. And afterall...it's not goodbye forever...it's just until you meet again..post baby :)
I thought you were leaving blog land too. Hope that your good-bye to your "friends" was great. I don't blame you at all.
In case I forget while I'm at work tomorrow, hope you have a nice birthday!
You gotta do what you gotta do and if anybody gives you a hard time just send them my way and I'll take care of them for ya!
Happy Birthday! I hope all your wishes come true. XOXO
I hope you had a nice bon voyage party with your friends. While I believe there is no single "magic bullet" that works for everyone, I firmly believe in listening to your intuition to decide what is right for you.
I personally gave up caffeine and most alcohol and followed a pretty strict TCM diet for my "issues." The end result was that I felt physically and emotionally healthy with it all. I hope the same happens for you.
I so hear you when you talk about wanting to not leave room for blaming yourself in the future for losing a baby. I have only miscarried once, and I feel that way too. I think when we get no explainations for the baby not surviving, we're bound to be plagued by wondering if we could have changed the outcome. Good for you!
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